Life Without Reason.

Hi, my name is Muhammad Syahmi. Today I want to tell about myself.

First of all, my full name Muhammad Bin Syahmi Saadon. I was born in the Maternity Hospital Kuala Lumpur, I was born on December 2, 1996, at 1.05am. I grew up in Selangor. I have two siblings, im the last. My brother named Mohammad Bin Syahir Saadon, he was 23 years old. Already exhausted Degree. He was born on November 22, 1991.

I want to tell about a life without meaning, I want to tell a little story about the past that I had gone through. When I was little, I grew up with loving parents. I'm in love from my parents until I feel I can do whatever I like. When in high school days, I began to be naughty, do not listen to what people say, against said parent, so it makes me a big head.

Form 1, I am constrained by the evil that is done from the area around me. It makes me rude, naughty and stubborn. I'm skipping school, and follow my friends to go hang out. As I form 2, I know the world with fights. I fight with my classmates because of misunderstandings. I was called discipline teacher and I get a warning the first result of my actions. But that did not enlighten me on my actions, it makes me become vindictive. Until one day, I fight with my best friend because he cursed me from behind. Until in 2012 we both talk to each other again.

In 2011, I saw the old uncle with a cane to walk alone in the middle of the city without anyone want to help him to cross the road. At the corner of my heart, I want to help him. I came close to him and led his hands to help him to cross the road. He thanked me and I just responded with a smile. Without a word, I continue to go from there. After that incident, I wondered why I felt so fun after helping elderly uncle was? I feel this is useful to the community and I have one to use. After that, I began to change. I do not fight, I try to be the best to both of my parents, I try to be a useful person.

After I changed, I feel calm. I'm trying to be better. I try to stay away from the bad influence of my environment but it will not happen all at once because I know I will not be able to change things around me without any help from the person who is around me. I tried to get closer to my God, but I can't because my old attitudes is still there. I tried and tried, so I can change myself bit by bit. I got help from my friends, Nurain Helina. She helped me, gave me the spirit. I will never forget help she told me. But unfortunately she died on 25 May 2013, I felt the loss of she until now because to me she is the only my best friend that I ever have. She died because of an accident, a car driven by her brother crashed because the car is squeezed from the opposite direction. Her brother safe, but she did not.

After that incident, I wondered when I would die? No matter how old we are, we never know when we will die. We'll never know!

After a year passed, I still remember she in my mind. But her face gave me strength to continue my studies, I got an offer at Kolej Poly-Tech MARA Ipoh in the diploma in Multimedia. I feel grateful, this may be my chance to be successful. Insha allah.

Finally, I would like to say that we can change ourselves. If you feel in yourself to change ourselves, change because it is still not too late.

Entry: Self Development
Name: Muhammad Syahmi Bin Saadon
Class: DIM0109
Date: 23 July 2014

Reprimand is Goodness?

                                                         (Reprimand is Goodness?)

     One day,at dawn around 6.00 a.m,as usual I woke up to prayers.After done prayer,I continue to sleep.When I sleep with a dream,suddenly I was awakened by my mother she said “Din! Wake up! Not good sleep after the prayer! Sustenance difficult to enter!”.I just said “Yes mama! I will wake up now.Give me five minutes”.After more than five minutes,I was still on the bed and still sleeping.Suddenly,my mother once again knocking on my door and said “Din! Wake up! Last you say five minutes but,now already more than five minutes!”.I said “Ok! I will wake up now!” but in my heart said “so noisy that old woman! My ear can be pain if I hearing her comment!”.

   

      After completion of the examination day,I was so relieved and happy because I’ve given my best and only resignedly and trust to Allah.After a few months,it is time to take the examination result.Before go to take my examination result,I started my step with Surah “Al-Kursi” and Surah “Al-Ikhlas”.When in the hall,to waiting my turn,my hands started twitching and cold but I strong then my spirit to take my results.Suddenly,I heard my name called,with anxiety,I took my result.Alhamdulillah! Thanks to Allah S.W.T.I check my result,I get excellent results although not so nice but,very proud of me.After return home,my mother asked me about my results and I just show y results and my mother proud to me because get excellent results although not so nice.

      After several months of waiting for a decision for admission to the university,finally decided to come out but unfortunately when I checked the results of admission to the university,I could not go anywhere universities offer.I feel sad and I feel disappointed with the decision but my mother gave me the courage and she said “it’s ok Din.Many private colleges or universities will be offered.InsyAllah!”.In a few days,I offered to private colleges namely is Kolej Poly Tech Mara majoring in Diploma in Multimedia in Ipoh Perak. Alhamdulillah! My mother and my parents is also happy.I decided to take the offer.

      Now it’s time for me becoming a student.When I sign in to college,I feel sad to let go with my parents especially my mother,who gave me a lot of advice.When I want to break up with my parents,my mother hugged me and I started crying.My mother said to me “Din,don’t forget to pray.Many of study hard.If there are any problems,call mama ok?”.I just said “Ok!” and wipe my tears.

      After almost a month I learned in college,I began to learn to live independently and be able to manage my time well.Eventually,I was able to mature myself and can solve all problems with maturity.Here I started thinking,very importance of advice or reprimand from someone especially a mother’s advice or reprimand that every advice has its own purpose and build.Any reprimand or advice will be mature and we will give a lesson to us.

Entry:  Self Development

Name:  Mohammad Izzuddin Ismat Bin Ahmad Kalam
Class:  DIM0109
Date:   23th July 2014

How I Ended Up Here [Self Development]

HOW I ENDED UP HERE NOW

Hello, Rizal’s here. Today, I am going to share a little bit about myself. My background and my story. Hopefully you guys can find something interesting in this entry.

So, let’s start with my name, my parents gave me the name Rizal bin Abu Hassan. Up until now, I am still confused why they had to choose that name. Actually, all my sibling’s name starts with Z’s, until me, the youngest. But instead of that, let’s just say I adapted myself with it. So to say your name reflects yourself in life. I was born on 16th November in 1996 at Hospital Mentakab, Pahang. Thus, on that day I see the world. The world which i need to tackle in order to successfully aced a game called “life”. And yes, like other kids, I grew up normally, or so I thought, in a village. A normal and peaceful village which you can see elders riding their classic bike to “warung”. Where people talks to each other, where people smiles and laugh everyday.

When I was such little kid, I have a habit. A bad one, I spent almost all my hours watching the television. Not just normal channel, almost every programme shown on the television interest me. I still remember the old big television we used to have, it was Panasonic branded old fashioned television. And I even skipped Saturday classes just to watch my favourite show.

About my hobby, I like to draw. The idea of being able to paint anything on a sheet of paper really hit me. I like colours, my favourite was green. Green represents the nature and calming sensation to the eyes. It also helps you relax your body by just watching green colour. Drawing has been my passion ever since I was small. I never take it seriously until 2011. When I started to think more maturely, what is our point of existence in life?

Highschool life was a big challenge, but to me it was a huge success and such bittersweet memory that I will keep until death. I appreciate others so much, even if they see me as just a simple character guy in their life, I see them as a major character in mine. With that, respect to others can be tolerated with that type of thinking. Before, all I could bother was just myself, but highschool life made me think. I have met so many awesome people, Raja Shamri, Nick Vujicic, who has achieved something in life and they made it looks so meaningful. And thus, I decided to set a goal in front of me. And whatever happens, i will move towards that goal. 

Thus, after SPM results were announced, I was in the top 10 best in my school, which made me really happy. Unfortunately, its too early, I did not get into any government universities. But after a quick research about opportunity, a little self motivation, a pinch of luck and hardship. I ended up here, in KPTM, Ipoh. I hope what I have learned in all this years will be come in handy. I have a dream, and I will move for it even if it’s just a little by little.

Entry:  Self Development

Name:  Rizal bin Abu Hassan
Class:  DIM0109
Date:  23th July 2014